Undivided Honesty
The BlogchiveIt’s like whoa.
So I have started internship… and my life seems to be back like the way it is at college. God, I so want a break… By right, we have to do a minimum of 6 weeks of internship while we have 7 weeks of “holiday” so it is pretty much up to us to decide whether or not we want to work that last week. My lecturer recommends taking that week off, and forgetting about everything to just go havoc and have fun before going back to college the following week. It sounds REAL tempting, I have to say… but I’m not sure… Have fun or the money? It upsets me that I’m always thinking about money, y’know. But anyhow, I think I’ll leave it to a last minute decision (as usual). If I’m too tired (which I already am now, not necessarily because of work), I will gladly take that one week off.
I used to have a lot to say… but I can’t think right now. I’m not feeling very good, so I’m at home instead of work, but I am getting some work done so it wouldn’t pile. …man, do I need to sleep. I’m aching all over, like I’m coming down with flu or something…
…so, me and Will broke up. It’s an understatement to say that I’m upset. I am more than upset and it is not okay. I don’t give a shit about the “many fishes in the sea”, “trees in the forest” or to “get another beef stick” (lol, though that made me laugh, thanks to my colleague, Edward). Will is my everything, and I wasn’t ready to let him go. To be honest, I don’t think I would ever be. Not when he means this much to me. Well, it was my fault anyway that this happened, but it’s hard to go against something I believe in when I’ve believed in it for so long now. Maybe it’s cultural differences and what I was brought up to believe. It’s difficult and a lot of sacrifices have to be made when two people of different races want to be together (not to mention the distance between us too). I have been thinking for way too long and I’m just so drained emotionally and mentally. But that said, I would absolutely love to take him back if it wasn’t so complicated. 
I do want to fight for this, William… but it’s not as easy. And I appreciate that you understand that. Thanks for being so wonderful, I love you. ♥
More hours in a day please.
Wow, many things have happened since I last posted! I just never had the time to put in a new entry. ><;;
Hmm, first the Linkin Park concert! 
It was freaking awesome! I really enjoyed myself. ^^ I’m sure Gav did too, lol. We were both singing along the whole time. Well, I know I sang along to every song. ! Everyone sang along as well! The place was sold out! It wasn’t very “mosh pit”y which I liked a lot. It was more like a karaoke session. xD <3 They were selling merch outside and I wanted to get a shirt but the one I wanted was sold out by the end of the concert. And I didn’t get the other shirts that were still available. :/ Instead, me and Gav got the empty CD and download code for the audio of the concert. It will be available in December. ^^ I have to say that Linkin Park delivers. <3 They are AMAZING on stage, plus Chester and Mike are funny people. xD
As for my projects, I managed to complete all of them (not like I had a choice, lol), and assessments went pretty alright. 
Lecturers said something along the lines of me having room for improvement for my FYP so I’m going to have to try harder next term, which I most definitely will.
Internship wise, I got two interviews, was accepted at both and decided on one to work at, haha. I started work on Monday and I have to say, the job scope wasn’t really quite as I thought. I didn’t think I’d have to deal with customers. I mean, it’s not a bad thing to deal with customers, I just have this phobia. When I worked as a part time cashier, one of my duties was to answer the phone (which is ridiculous because cashiers deal with money, not phones -rolls eyes-). Sometimes, customers would scold me when it was NOT my fault at all! Geez. Outrageous people. Other than that, internship has been quite okay. Other than the fact that I have not yet gotten enough sleep to cover the 3 days that I stayed up rushing projects… I can’t wait to get my PSP with my paycheck though! :p
Minutes to Midnight
Linkin Park with Gav tonight. I’m damn well excited, haha. BUT (argh, isn’t there always a but…) I have tons to do for assessment still. And assessment is on the 19th. We are the first class on the first day of assessment week. T_T I suppose, in a way, it is good. Although we have lesser time to complete our stuff, we would have more time to relax! Before starting our internship on the 26th of December anyway, lol.
Meh, I have to complete RCS by today because submission is tomorrow. >< I feel so stressed! I have to do as much as I can before LP, go have a hell of a time relaxing as much as I can, and then rush home to complete it. Gosh, this year is the worse, I feel more rushed than ever before! I guess it’s sort of a training before we graduate and go out to work.
Speaking of work, I have been applying to web design companies for internship, like I was saying the other time. I got a reply from one and will be going in for an interview tomorrow. Wish me luck! :p
Also, my sister is coming home tomorrow night! Even though I have lots of things to do, I will still be picking her from the airport because I promised her I would. :p I haven’t seen her since February when the family went over with her, so I’m excited to see her again. I’m definitely going shopping with her after my assessments.
Alright, I’m blabbering, so I will stop now. Back to rushing my work again! (Shh, I’m in class, haha.)
Friends are overrated.
I say this because I’ve been crashed and burned so many times but it still hurts a lot every time. I don’t know, I always seem to be in this kind of situation. I must be cursed or something, lol.
Well, on a brighter note (and also because I don’t want to think about it now), I’m going to see Linkin Park with Gav in November! Will wanted to pay for me and I gave up arguing with him over it so he assumes he won. -_- Have you met a sillier boy, lol. I still love him. ^^
My sister is coming back in a couple of weeks too! I can’t wait! I’ve missed her so much. And it had been hard talking on MSN when we’re both busy. :/ But it’s going to be good! I’m so going to take her shopping, lol. I’d be having my internship around then so most probably after work or the weekends. I’m sure we’ll work something out.
The last time I mentioned that I adopted a bunch of a1 FLs from Louise, they have since been transferred over to my domain and approved by TFL.
I also talked about Snoe, but forgot to mention that she got allergic reactions to the wood shavings that I got so the moment I noticed, I quickly changed the shavings for toilet paper instead, lol. She has gotten better, but I still am going to get better bedding for the little squirt. She’s a right weirdo, this one, lol. She likes to sleep, eat, poo and pee in her wheel. -_- And she sleeps upside down, the weirdo.
I put her in that while I cleaned out her cage and whenever I do, she likes to lick the sides of the tank. -_- Like that was going to get her out of it, lol. She’s really cute though, isn’t she? She’s gotten fat-assed since I got her. LOL. 
College is still the same old, same old. Though I did feel a bit relieved today after consulting my lecturer about my AD project, lol.
It was love, wasn’t it.
I must stop apologising for not blogging. >< I hadn’t the time, or mood, to blog… :/ And I’m sure you don’t want to hear me drone on about my mundane life.
Really, nothing interesting has happened since my birthday. Everything went as planned, except for the drinking part. We were all dead tired by then so we went home after dinner instead. The following Monday, me and Lo exchanged presents because her birthday was on that Monday. Three days after mine, lol. Another friend had a birthday just two days before mine. October babies ftw! xD So come present exchange time, I realised that Lo and several of my classmates got me a hamster, lol! Instead of one baby, I now have two. ><;;
I had two talks after classes today. One was on the creative industry, while the other about internship. The first, by AdWOW!, was pretty alright, not that boring as I thought it would be, lol. The other by Dr Adam Goh, was downright boring, if I might say so… >< I’m sure he’s not a boring person, but the talk… Gosh. And not to mention the fact that I have to do a report, worth 40% of my workbook, on the talks for a module. I recorded them on my phone though, so just in case I can’t remember points, I can listen to the recordings. xD Brilliant, innit. I’m sure they’re making us do the report just so we’d turn up. ;/
I have adopted a bunch of a1 FLs from Louise, the layouts she made are all set up on my domain already. All that’s left are the members to be transferred. I’ll do that tomorrow as well.
From This Moment…
Life has begun. :/
-le sigh- I have been dreading this day. The day that I turn older. The day that I become an old fart. T_T Okay, so I’m just 19 today, big deal… but I’d much rather be 18 forever. T_T …or 21 forever. T_T -sniffs- Then again, as long as one remains young at heart, and still looks youthful, age is just a number, right? It’s not like I can do anything about it, lol.
Thank you to those early wishers. I love you guys! <3
Hmm… plans… well, my plans for today are class at 9am, lunch at noon with Andre, dinner with BFFs and pubbing with Lo and maybe some other friends later in the night. Much more exciting compared to last year, lol. Hope today goes well! Meh, I should bed now, it’s 1am, and I have class at 9am. xD
Well and Alive!
My goodness, I haven’t updated in a long while. >< Assessments was last week till the beginning of this week. I’d been mugging for so long that I took a break for the rest of the week. I finally managed to get out of the house today that wasn’t for school! It felt a bit weird though, lol. Yet it was rather nice spending time with my parents because it’d been quite some time, what with me and my mugging. LOL.
All was fine and dandy, and THEN my group mate for Research and Communication Studies reminded me that we still had other projects to do. -cue fainting- Yes… so I’m going to have to get up in about 5 hours or so to discuss the project. College is SO lame. -rolls eyes-
Wilber (my laptop as mentioned in the last post), is doing fine. He’s been a rather good boy. Though, I don’t know why he refuses to recognise my HP printer. :/ I’ll have to check that out another time.
A new baby in the household.
He’s called Wilber, haha. I brought him home yesterday. He’s totally round and adorable, too cute for his own good! There was no messy delivery either. Hell, there wasn’t a need for delivery at all! I’ve waited for years and now I’ve finally got him. He’s practically the very thing I needed to complete my somewhat screwed up life. I’ve got my family, my friends, William, my education, and now this little bundle of joy! And I love him. So so so much. To bits and pieces.
…okay, I talk as if Wilber is human. No, you’re wrong. Wilber is not human, and neither did I give birth to an electronic device. Wilber, my dear baby, is my brand new laptop! I’ve waited for so long to finally get one and now I have! Only difference is that instead of the usual whinings to my parents of, “I WANT A LAPTOPPP. T_T”, it was more, “I think I really do need one to help me with my projects.” despite the fact that I already have an awesome desktop.
Thing is, I don’t quite fancy the idea of transporting the entire desktop just so I could show my lecturers the progress of my work. Sure, I could borrow from my friends, just to show the lecturer for the moment. But if s/he wanted me to change something, I would not be able to, and that would be a week of that module gone to waste. Long story short, I’m hoping Wilber will help accelerate the progress of my projects. :p -strokes him-
Anyway, enough of all this blabbering. College has been taking up so much time, that I didn’t feel comfortable blogging. Something about feeling guilty about not doing work instead, lol! I took a bit of time to write this because I was about to go off to bed. Sometimes, rules can be bent, yeah? :p So yeah, before I fall asleep on the keyboard and have letters pressed on the side of my face tomorrow later, I’m going to bed.
SINGfest, college and an operation!?
Oh, wow. SINGfest was awesome! Cobra Starship, The Academy Is… and Gym Class Heroes played back to back so that was really awesome! Before the festival started, I managed to meet Gabe Saporta! He’s awfully nice, took pictures with and signed autographs for practically all the fans gathered around him! Before you scream, “LIES!” at me, here’s prove!
![Me and Gabe Saporta [Cobra Starship]](http://a435.ac-images.myspacecdn.com/images01/118/l_66199d1fe45ba68df8a8a036caab2d62.gif)
Me, JT and AJ went together, and coincidentally, the girl in front of us in the queue had actually spoken to me and JT on Last.fm! What a small world Singapore! When AJ got separated from us, me and JT had mad fun with the girl and her friend! xD I would post pictures of the festival but there are way too many and I don’t have the patience, really. :p Here’s one I absolutely love, though!
Hmm… College has been rather stressful, to say the least. Though, I think this term I’m a bit more well-behaved and have been doing my work. There are times when I’ve slacked, I admit… but I’m slowly getting there. Before you know it, I’d be handling the next term and second semester better than I ever did the last two years! LOL.
So yesterday and the day before, I’d been panicking and worrying a lot. Not because of college but because Will was going for an operation to remove a huge lump on his shoulder. It wasn’t cancerous but no one wants to take the chance, I’m sure. His operation was yesterday and he texted me when he woke up after, just to let me know he was okay. It was such a relieve, let me tell you that! I thought I was going to go crazy with all that worrying. >< I’m glad he’s fine now though.
Hope you guys are doing fine as well. :]
Fueled by Starbucks
OMGZ! I’m totally excited about tomorrow! I’m going to SINGfest! I’m mainly going for the FBR bands though, because they’re awesome. :p The FBR bands that are performing are Cobra Starship, The Academy Is… and Gym Class Heroes! I love them three, haha. Especially Cobra Starship! I’d been dreaming of the day I would see them live and just months later, I am! Eee! Totally excited! Haha.
It’s a full day affair though, from 1pm till 12am. x_x I am so going to be dead beat by then, lol! Though, I might leave earlier, seeing as I’ve got a 9am class on Friday. :/ But it’s going to be worth it! I’m meeting JT, a college mate and then we’ll meet AJ, a girl we met while at FOB. We’ll have a blast, I’m sure! ^^
I really wish the other FBR bands like Paramore and Cute Is What We Aim For would come too. xD I love them. < There’s so much to be done for every single module this term, I’m guessing it’s because it’s the final year… Torture! T_T I barely slept well the past few days that I’d been relying on coffee to keep me awake in classes. Ah well, I’ll just have to get through it, won’t I. I’m lucky enough to even be in college.
P.S. Happy National Day, Singaporeans!
Happy 42nd birthday, Singapore. ^^
