Undivided Honesty
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This is Graduation.
I don’t know about you, but I upgraded my WordPress a couple of days ago and I must say, I really love the slickness of the new design! 
If you haven’t upgraded already, you should. 
Though, I’m still not used to the Plugins link being on the far right yet.
College has been rather stressful… I graduate next month, and have a FYP and two minor projects to complete by Stage 2 Assessment at the end of this month. Majoring in Publication Design is not as easy as it seems! D: I’m sure I’d be able to complete everything by then, but it would be a bit of a mad rush, seeing as I had procrastinated for the past few weeks. My bad, I can never not procrastinate. ><;; I am making progress now though, so hopefully, with fingers crossed, I’d finish everything by the 14th, as planned. -crosses fingers-
I’m still not too sure about what to do after I graduate. It’s either I go look for a job or continue with a degree. I want to do my degree overseas but that would be really expensive and my parents definitely can’t afford that, so I’m hoping I’d manage to get a scholarship (not a high chance, seeing as my results aren’t that good), if anything. Otherwise, I’d just get a job in hopes of funding for Uni… If only I was rich, or if someone would sponsor me, haha.
Thank you to everyone for being nice to me about the breakup. We are still on talking terms, despite things getting even more complicated and confusing, haha. We both love (each other) so much, but several problems need to be solved/gotten over, if we want to give the relationship a third try. Whoever said LDRs were easy, huh? :p
“Great, I have herpes.”
This afternoon, me and Reyna were just hanging out online and she sent me a link, shocked that someone had actually uploaded 71 minutes of video. Upon looking further, we then found ourselves trying to help the film makers to raise money for their film production, only to realise they had already made their target (raising more than their target, even). We planned to watch the film together once it was done loading. The film that I am talking about, is called Four Eyed Monsters.
WHAT IS THE MOVIE ABOUT?
It’s about our lives. Being alone in a city, wanting to be in a relationship but feeling there are no good ways to start a connection and then breaking out of a rut, jumping feet first into something deeper and crazier than either of us expected.
You should really check it out because not only was it “nominated for two spirit awards and won the undiscovered gems Sundance Audience Award” (For more about the film, check this out.), it is also very inspiring and creative. I love how they had their dates, it made me want to try out future dates like that.
On a small side note, me and Will are over. Just a little over our ninth monthsary, we’re over. The past (more than a) week has been an upsetting one, but life goes on as usual. I have mopped about, rushed shit for assessments, got annoyed with my family over the slightest things and cried like a freaking tap that’s been left on. However, we are still on talking terms (though, I’m not sure how good that is for my emotional health) and I feel better having him to talk to than not (which I hope isn’t weird, considering people I know break contact with ex boyfriends to get over them). This is beyond fucked up, but like I said, life goes on.
Have fun watching the film!
Happy holidays!
On the whole boyfriend topic in the last post, I took him back so the crisis is, well, quite over somehow. For the moment, anyway. :p I decided that I’d rather be happy than dwell over something that can never be changed and be very unhappy. And the few days after we got back together, it was like the honeymoon period all over again, lol. That’s how much in love I am with that boy. ♥
Christmas is fast approaching, what are your plans? As usual, I’m heading over to my cousin’s house where annually, they invite church friends and family over. It’s more of a gathering than a party sort of thing, though I would’ve quite liked a party, lol. I also haven’t gotten any shopping done. Hadn’t any time, but I’m sure no one minds late presents. I mean, afterall, you’re still getting presents, what’s to be unhappy about? Lol. :p To be honest, the past couple of years, it has never felt like Christmas at all. Last year, I was preoccupied with neverending college projects. This year, I have internship around the holiday period (which is ridiculous). What holiday are you talking about? >< Though next year… I can SO see myself having a ball of a time. It will be a good year, haha. I would have graduated by then!
On the topic of holidays and presents, I had for the longest time, thought about getting myself an iPod Video but decided on a PSP in the end because it had games, video and music capabilities. But only a couple of days, I checked up on Apple and realised that they had three new iPods! I hardly ever check up on new stuff, so I was kind of slow in knowing, lol. I had my eye on the iPod Touch and was utterly mesmerised by the guided tour. However, after thinking for a while, and comparing the new iPod Classic and the iPod Touch, I’d rather go for the iPod Classic 160GB for the storage space rather than the design of the iPod Touch. For that, it would cost me around S$600 as compared to around S$700 for a 16GB iPod Touch. That’s 10 times less storage space for S$100 more! Outrageous, isn’t it? Lol. So I’ve concluded that the iPod Classic would be better worth for money. Hopefully there’d be post Christmas sales so I can get it ASAP and for a cheaper price, or I’d be using up half of my internship pay! 
It’s like whoa.
So I have started internship… and my life seems to be back like the way it is at college. God, I so want a break… By right, we have to do a minimum of 6 weeks of internship while we have 7 weeks of “holiday” so it is pretty much up to us to decide whether or not we want to work that last week. My lecturer recommends taking that week off, and forgetting about everything to just go havoc and have fun before going back to college the following week. It sounds REAL tempting, I have to say… but I’m not sure… Have fun or the money? It upsets me that I’m always thinking about money, y’know. But anyhow, I think I’ll leave it to a last minute decision (as usual). If I’m too tired (which I already am now, not necessarily because of work), I will gladly take that one week off.
I used to have a lot to say… but I can’t think right now. I’m not feeling very good, so I’m at home instead of work, but I am getting some work done so it wouldn’t pile. …man, do I need to sleep. I’m aching all over, like I’m coming down with flu or something…
…so, me and Will broke up. It’s an understatement to say that I’m upset. I am more than upset and it is not okay. I don’t give a shit about the “many fishes in the sea”, “trees in the forest” or to “get another beef stick” (lol, though that made me laugh, thanks to my colleague, Edward). Will is my everything, and I wasn’t ready to let him go. To be honest, I don’t think I would ever be. Not when he means this much to me. Well, it was my fault anyway that this happened, but it’s hard to go against something I believe in when I’ve believed in it for so long now. Maybe it’s cultural differences and what I was brought up to believe. It’s difficult and a lot of sacrifices have to be made when two people of different races want to be together (not to mention the distance between us too). I have been thinking for way too long and I’m just so drained emotionally and mentally. But that said, I would absolutely love to take him back if it wasn’t so complicated.
I do want to fight for this, William… but it’s not as easy. And I appreciate that you understand that. Thanks for being so wonderful, I love you. ♥
Friends are overrated.
I say this because I’ve been crashed and burned so many times but it still hurts a lot every time. I don’t know, I always seem to be in this kind of situation. I must be cursed or something, lol.
Well, on a brighter note (and also because I don’t want to think about it now), I’m going to see Linkin Park with Gav in November! Will wanted to pay for me and I gave up arguing with him over it so he assumes he won. -_- Have you met a sillier boy, lol. I still love him. ^^
My sister is coming back in a couple of weeks too! I can’t wait! I’ve missed her so much. And it had been hard talking on MSN when we’re both busy. :/ But it’s going to be good! I’m so going to take her shopping, lol. I’d be having my internship around then so most probably after work or the weekends. I’m sure we’ll work something out.
The last time I mentioned that I adopted a bunch of a1 FLs from Louise, they have since been transferred over to my domain and approved by TFL.
I also talked about Snoe, but forgot to mention that she got allergic reactions to the wood shavings that I got so the moment I noticed, I quickly changed the shavings for toilet paper instead, lol. She has gotten better, but I still am going to get better bedding for the little squirt. She’s a right weirdo, this one, lol. She likes to sleep, eat, poo and pee in her wheel. -_- And she sleeps upside down, the weirdo.
I put her in that while I cleaned out her cage and whenever I do, she likes to lick the sides of the tank. -_- Like that was going to get her out of it, lol. She’s really cute though, isn’t she? She’s gotten fat-assed since I got her. LOL. 
College is still the same old, same old. Though I did feel a bit relieved today after consulting my lecturer about my AD project, lol.
